MORE JAMS
More jam talk. Bear with me.
Today went relatively well! For me, the difference that I was able to initiate(!) one solid, concrete idea (i.e. not just an opening line that didn’t have any direction), and, for whatever reason, was in enough of a groove that I blocked out the audience (half of the time, at least). I definitely made some missteps, but I think I made a couple of improvements, too, which thankfully has overtaken my brain’s usual instinct to criticize.
So the lesson remains, if you fail at a jam once, fail at a jam twice, fail at a jam thrice and henceforth for several more weeks, just keep going, because statistically you’ll probably end up doing something right at least once somewhere along the way.
And also: more jaaams.